I
completely lost my ability to focus. I couldn't start projects, I couldn't maintain
enough concentration to completely problem sets or study, and it endangered me
academically.
I'm
scared all the time. I'm scared to begin a romantic relationship. I feel like
damaged goods, that my friends are only dealing with me to be nice. I feel like
everyone knows that it happened, like I have a big sticker on my forehead that
says "I was raped".
It
hurts so much deeper than I ever thought it could.
[Note
from the editor: This is one of the many anonymous anecdotes and survey
responses collected for the dx/dt project that were not used in the film. They
are being posted here as contributions to the discussion of sexual violence,
relationship abuse, and stalking in the MIT community. Thank you to all of the
authors of these posts for your willingness to speak out.]